Psalms 95:6
Oh come let us worship and bow down;
Let us kneel before the Lord our Maker!
Man, it feels good to be writing again. It's been a long time. and I've missed it. Many things have happened since the last time i posted anything on here. Among these are some big things like finally going off to a university, meeting an incredible girl and some amazing friends, and reconfirming where my passion truly lies. These past few months have been insane. Insane in an awesome way though. I have grown more as a man in the past few months than I did in 4 years of high school. And things have just begun...
College is a strange and wild animal. It can make you or break you. College, for me, has been a learning experience (to say the least). I now know where my allegiances lie in regard to politics, my religion (already knew that, but I'll expand) and morals. But the main thing that I have learned is how NOT to study. Yes. Just like many many others, I too fell victim to the awful habit of skipping class, not studying for tests and saying, "Oh well. God will give me recall on the info." Well let me tell you. He cant help you recall something that isn't put into your head in the first place.... So, If you are reading this and are in college or high school or anything of the like, take heed. STUDY AND GO TO CLASS.
I apologize for the complete randomness this post contains, but this is all stuff that has been put on my heart to say.
So, recently i went on a walk to emmaus. This was such an incredible experience and totally realigned my life to where it should have been all along. I was created to be in ministry. every time I try to run, God gives me a nice little slap in the face and tells me, "Turn around and run back fool!" (Sometimes I like to envision God having Mr. T's voice when He talks to me.) But I am so glad He has decided to be very nice to me and not have me swallowed up by a fish. I know now what I am supposed to do. AND I AM NEVER RUNNING AGAIN.
While in college here at Texas Tech, WRECK 'EM, I have met some incredible people. My best friends at this point in my life, I met in the first month or so of being here. Taylor Lamb is such a sweet and wonderful girl, and has helped me meet so many incredible people. Laken is one of the funniest and sweetest girls I have and ever will meet. These two girls have made my life here just that much sweeter. and I thank God every day for them.
And then there's Kendell.
Kendell White is probably the most incredible woman I have ever met. She is one of the strongest Christians, and an incredibly strong woman. Everything about her makes me want to be the Christian man God wants me to be and the man my parents raised me to be. I am so incredibly blessed to have her in my life and have her as one of my best friends.
My life has been amazing these last few months and I have learned so much about who I am and what I need to change about myself.
Here's a poem I am going to attempt to write in about 5 minutes. Enjoy.
If You're Gonna Run, Run With Me
Boy, you'd better listen.
And listen close.
This is what you need to do.
Don't be opposed.
I know you're not perfect
And never will be.
But I've done more with less.
So just trust Me.
God, I'm not ready.
I'm such a mess.
I've been unfaithful
I'm way too stressed.
You can find someone better
More qualified.
Maybe the kid down the street.
He's really not shy.
Come back to me later.
When I'm better than now.
I'll get better I promise.
Just not right now.
Boy, do you hear what I'm saying?
I'm telling you you're ready.
Anything that needs to change
Will change when I'm ready.
Don't run away.
Come back and stay.
Be in My company
And never stray.
If you're gonna run,
Run with me.
You're created for a purpose.
Don't you see.
You're perfect for this job.
I picked you specially for it.
Don't run from it.
I promise you'll enjoy it.
I love you after all.
I want the best for you.
You'll do great I know.
Because i made you.
Lord, I'm so sorry.
I know I was wrong.
I guess I could do it.
Just please make me strong.
I'll need your guidance
And your firm grip
Hold me tight Lord
And don't let me slip.
I see now what you're saying.
I can't do this on my own.
That's why I'm so perfect for it.
Because its your power that will be shown.
I will do this through you and for you
And I will never back down.
Because you are the Lord MY GOD
And you will always be around.
I love you MY GOD
And I will praise you through the end.
You are my comfort, and redeemer.
You are my best friend.
